I feel like an Idiot. I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what to type, there’s so much going on, but I can’t get it out.
Honestly, I feel like I just want to fall asleep for a really, really long time. I feel dumber and dumber every day. My head and my heart keeps telling me to go outside, get some fresh air, but the world just doesn’t let me.
Empty pocket, empty head, empty state of mind. I told myself to write something for a billion times but for some reason, I just couldn’t really think of anything to talk about. Every time I wake up in the morning, I always feel the urge to just go back to sleep.
“Just snooze the alarm and close your eyes for 10 more minutes”
Life is more than just us trying to do good deeds so we don’t go to hell. I’m pretty sure that our very existence mean something. Not necessarily something important. But it’s something.
It’s so bland. Everything feels meaningless. I can’t really enjoy my life the way I used to. I feel like there are dozen of things that can get me excited, a dozen responsibility that I have to take care about, but all I ended up doing is just stuck in a loop where I put just a minimum effort into absolutely everything.
I guess the never ending problem that I’m currently facing drained the shit out of my life force. I no longer have enough fuel to think rationally at times, and I found myself second guessing everything that I do even for the smallest thing.
I need therapy.
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